Five

I need my heart to race
Sweat rolling down my spine
Obsession is addicting
Digressions are my binds.
Control is my Escape
For Freedom would be Rape
I need perfection.
I need Precision.
I need Exactness.
Therefore no indecision
I sabotage my dream
For I long to regret tomorrow
Anything to prove the lie
Obsessing over what isn’t.
Suck the life from loved ones
Cross boundaries to escape
Smother the […]

I lost myself
I checked-out
disconnected from the world
disassociated from the rest
I left my feelings at the back door of the house I grew up in when I was 9.
Distracting myself became my main addiction
I laughed…
grinned at things I couldn’t comprehend.
Today…
I am misunderstood..
alienated by my reality
lost from the rest
in hiding hoping someone will find me
Death crept upon […]

I am torn
I am tired
Of people telling me what I feel
If I am dedicated
What I plan to do
You will walk over me no more
I am my own person
I will make decisions for myself and no one else
This is my life
Cliché?
Screw it
It is
I will no longer lie to myself
I AM IN CONTROL
I will no longer let […]

Absolutely, If That’s Who You Want Me to Be!
I am clay. Mold me as you please. Whatever you want, just please, please like me. I beg you.
This is who I am. I am not my own person, I am merely on earth to fulfill everyone else’s needs. Would you like me to tell you a […]

My days seems to be filled with revelations or maybe they are just things I’m finally willing to admit to myself after knowing for so long. But, being surrounded by these four other girls pouring their hearts out into this project, and finding that we all have so much in common with our struggles it’s […]

Hello. My name is Reyn Taylor. And I think I’m different than other people my age. Sometimes I feel powerful beyond what makes sense, and the better half of me yearns to be exactly what I am: untouchable, unexplainable, uninhabitable. I want to embrace my brilliance and inspire change- I feel destined to start a […]

I am always right.
I always make the right decisions and I never make mistakes.
I have spent my life trying to prove these meaningless statements and all that I have learned is how to tighten my grip as though I have control over it all. All this time has been wasted trying to be the “ideal” […]

Once Upon a Time…
I created an image that I was certain would make others incredibly envious and intimidated by and as a result they would somehow magically like me because they would aspire to be me; PERFECT!
I created an image that I thought would grant me my true friend, my perfect prince charming, the perfect […]