What Isn’t…

    Posted by on Friday, May 23rd | No Comments

    I need my heart to race
    Sweat rolling down my spine
    Obsession is addicting
    Digressions are my binds.
    Control is my Escape
    For Freedom would be Rape
    I need perfection.
    I need Precision.
    I need Exactness.
    Therefore no indecision
    I sabotage my dream
    For I long to regret tomorrow
    Anything to prove the lie
    Obsessing over what isn’t.
    Suck the life from loved ones
    Cross boundaries to escape
    Smother the […]

    Tears

    Posted by on Saturday, May 3rd | No Comments

    I lost myself
    I checked-out
    disconnected from the world
    disassociated from the rest
    I left my feelings at the back door of the house I grew up in when I was 9.
    Distracting myself became my main addiction
    I laughed…
    grinned at things I couldn’t comprehend.
    Today…
    I am misunderstood..
    alienated by my reality
    lost from the rest
    in hiding hoping someone will find me
    Death crept upon […]

    Once Upon a Time…The Perfect One

    Posted by on Tuesday, March 4th | 1 Comment

    Once Upon a Time…
    I created an image that I was certain would make others incredibly envious and intimidated by and as a result they would somehow magically like me because they would aspire to be me; PERFECT!
    I created an image that I thought would grant me my true friend, my perfect prince charming, the perfect […]