What Isn’t…

Posted by on Friday, May 23rd | No Comments

I need my heart to race
Sweat rolling down my spine
Obsession is addicting
Digressions are my binds.
Control is my Escape
For Freedom would be Rape
I need perfection.
I need Precision.
I need Exactness.
Therefore no indecision
I sabotage my dream
For I long to regret tomorrow
Anything to prove the lie
Obsessing over what isn’t.
Suck the life from loved ones
Cross boundaries to escape
Smother the […]

Tears

Posted by on Saturday, May 3rd | No Comments

I lost myself
I checked-out
disconnected from the world
disassociated from the rest
I left my feelings at the back door of the house I grew up in when I was 9.
Distracting myself became my main addiction
I laughed…
grinned at things I couldn’t comprehend.
Today…
I am misunderstood..
alienated by my reality
lost from the rest
in hiding hoping someone will find me
Death crept upon […]