Five

“Maybe I was wrong” we all began to think to ourselves. There is something more to the girl across the room. We began to see each other through less envious eyes. Maybe her life wasn’t so perfect. Maybe there was a reason for the way she dressed or spoke. Each of us was slowly able […]

At first glance we secretly didn’t like each other. We were all nice, of course, according to the laws of society; but deep down there was something that just didn’t jive about that girl across the room. She was too pretty, too smart, or just a little too funny. We regarded each other with envious […]

I need my heart to race
Sweat rolling down my spine
Obsession is addicting
Digressions are my binds.
Control is my Escape
For Freedom would be Rape
I need perfection.
I need Precision.
I need Exactness.
Therefore no indecision
I sabotage my dream
For I long to regret tomorrow
Anything to prove the lie
Obsessing over what isn’t.
Suck the life from loved ones
Cross boundaries to escape
Smother the […]

I lost myself
I checked-out
disconnected from the world
disassociated from the rest
I left my feelings at the back door of the house I grew up in when I was 9.
Distracting myself became my main addiction
I laughed…
grinned at things I couldn’t comprehend.
Today…
I am misunderstood..
alienated by my reality
lost from the rest
in hiding hoping someone will find me
Death crept upon […]

I am torn
I am tired
Of people telling me what I feel
If I am dedicated
What I plan to do
You will walk over me no more
I am my own person
I will make decisions for myself and no one else
This is my life
Cliché?
Screw it
It is
I will no longer lie to myself
I AM IN CONTROL
I will no longer let […]

Absolutely, If That’s Who You Want Me to Be!
I am clay. Mold me as you please. Whatever you want, just please, please like me. I beg you.
This is who I am. I am not my own person, I am merely on earth to fulfill everyone else’s needs. Would you like me to tell you a […]

My days seems to be filled with revelations or maybe they are just things I’m finally willing to admit to myself after knowing for so long. But, being surrounded by these four other girls pouring their hearts out into this project, and finding that we all have so much in common with our struggles it’s […]